Thursday, September 11, 2008

Bear with me

a lovely sight

I've been all a jumble this week, not really because of all the minutia going on that I like to list from time to time (which most of you could probably do without and I probably could too), but because of what's going on behind the scenes, the unmentionable, the unblogable, the heartbreaking, the lifechanging situations of several people around me. Luckily, and I really mean by the grace of God, I'm not speaking of me or Kevin or the kids. But we are all affected, sore in the stomach, with heavy hearts and find ourselves making statements like, "This is all just temporary, brighter days are coming" (Kevin). And it's not really our kids that know, these are the ponderings of the adult mind, searching for the adult solutions to life's darker days and all the ways in which we can be present for loved ones who need us. May they want us right now.

Fortunately there's music, and knitting or my anxiety would perhaps spin me into the abyss. I had the thought today that my kids are either going to love Pearl Jam and U2and Radio Head and Aimee Mann and Cold Play and and and....or hate it. This when I was blasting "Daughter" in the car, windows down, dancing down the highway in my minivan and 38 year old body. Ridiculous. It may deal with sad material, but I find it one of my most liberating songs ever. You'll see....

she holds the hand that holds her down...
she will...rise above...

lyrics from "Daughter" by Pearl Jam

So I pray for those I speak of that they will rise above. They may not know it yet, but I'm sure, no, I know that they will.

p.s. the other thing I do when I'm anxious is make jewelry
p.p.s. thanks for sticking with me


Pamela said...

The necklace is lovely. My thoughts are with you during these tough times. How fabulous to have a stress-relieving hobby that produces such fabulous results!

Anonymous said...

Ohhh that's pretty.

I wish I could make it all better by just thinking good thoughts for you and those you're hurting for. Sending you all the peace I can.