Friday, August 21, 2009

In limbo

Like the sudden summer rain that seems to arrive from nowhere, things can turn on a dime. I was all geared up to go back to the hospital on Monday when the kids start school, but that turned out to be just as uncertain as the rain and now it looks like I'll be cleaning closets or weeding through the tangled mess that is the girls' bedroom, or spreading mulch, or knitting my hands off, or baking (yes, definitely baking), or getting ready to paint any number of rooms in the house, or laundry, or enough already, you get the picture.

I don't know whether to be excited or disappointed, this whole "figuring my life out" thing has me stumped and feeling like I'm in nowhere-land. But I suppose anticipation is my biggest enemy in the whole grand scheme of things, that, and the nagging feeling that somehow I'm not doing my part if I'm not working non-stop in one capacity or another. Yes, I'd say those two things in and of themselves will give me plenty to work on while I'm not working. Hello sunshine, good-bye umbrella.

1 comment:

Pamela said...

What happened? I totally understand wanting to have everything align neatly and according to plan. Just often enough to make me confident it can again, it does. But sometimes it just doesn't.